19 de Junio de 2025
idk how long this entry will be lol
I been making a lot of strides with my mental health, though I still do have bouts of moments where I just... lose all motivation.
I hadn't been active in a friend group server in months due to focusing on other stuff and depression going "no" each time I think about doing anything fun and productive. My closest friend saying that everyone missed me when I decided to hop into VC one day reminded me that the human brain is good at gaslighting itself when it comes to self-image and opinion, and there are people out there who do care.
It made me realize how inactive I been in other friend group servers as well, and I should try and spend more time with them as often as I can. It's not easy being a part of different groups lol
In other news, I am one component away from completing my PC upgrade, but due to how much I been allocating my funds, my GED will have to be put onto the back-burner until then. But being able to prep for studying with a PC that runs better I feel will all be worth it in the end, and on a similar note, being able to run my favorite games with the specs that can run them will be nice too.
Thinking about the what-ifs on things to go wrong are literally just an annoying voice in the back of my head that doesn't bother me anymore, looking forward to the event is much nicer and actually improves my morale in a way. The things that go wrong during or after things happen are things I will deal with when they happen.
Better not to think about the future and focus on the present.